(A TV playing ‘The Fourth Disciple’ in the Texas Theatre, D3OL 2023)

Before I start, I just want to acknowledge how difficult moving actually is. For the summer, I will be living in Dallas for an internship. The process of knowing what to pack, packing, driving, then unpacking is a lot of work, even with the help of my mother. Of course, I don’t want to give the impression that I am ungrateful for this opportunity to move, it’s just funny how grossly I underestimated both how much I needed (or rather didn’t need) and how much time I would actually have towards my creative endeavors. Remember the competition I was talking about last blog, well that most likely won’t be starting until I return because it seems all I have time for is work, work, sleep. There still hasn’t been time set aside for the gym or for the schoolwork that hasn’t started yet. 

Additionally, I broke my streak. Was meant to write and publish a blog at least once a week. However, after the first week, I think I have a good grasp on how my schedule will be for the summer. While I am on this topic, I will go ahead and say I will be doing my best to go to new places and try new things whilst I am here. To start me off, I went to an old-timey theatre called “Texas Theatre”. Like the description suggests, the theatre had a very vintage feel to it. The interior was quite unique, and I snagged a couple of pictures of the place when I was there. Additionally, I watched the original “Ghost in a Shell” movie. The soundtrack was very captivating, and the overall feel of the movie was quite enjoyable. I wouldn’t be able to tell you about the plot because I was having a hard time understanding the point, but it is probably one of those movies where you need to watch it multiple times to really get it. I will include the specific song that I really liked, but I do want to touch on a subject that had me feeling a bit regretful.

Throughout my college career, I have been invited to social events. Social events that had a supposed start and end time. In an attempt to have more self-respect for myself, I would abide by the stated time. However, the friends who invite me are on the other spectrum and because of this, I often see how they have a good time on Instagram. It didn’t bother me that much until I saw the recap of a grad party for a few of my friends. I was in attendance at the party and I left after a certain amount of time had passed. As I am looking through the recap video, I realize I am in none of the photos. But I was there. I was at the party but there wasn’t any proof and it had me thinking.

All this effort I put into prioritizing my time; what has it gotten me? Even when I got back from those events, procrastination still occurred and resulted in me rushing to finish my obligations. I was too strict with time and I do not believe it has gotten me much. Most of my friends have graduated and moved away. There are a few friends left, and I will not make the same mistake again. Of course, I will use discernment to decide when the right time to leave is, but something will change. Either I will kill procrastination and put my energy into completing my work when it needs to be completed, or I will stay longer at events, regardless of my pending work status. One thing is for certain, all this work I am putting in to be successful cannot be fully enjoyed without company. 

In the same moment, I was thinking this thought, I began wondering why I was working this hard in the first place. “What am I working towards?”, “Why am I doing this?” were questions that went through my head. Then the philosopher, “Sisyphus” came to my mind. Specifically, the anecdote of him being forced to roll a boulder up a hill for all of eternity. Obviously, I am not pushing a boulder up the mountain, but I think in this scenario, my career is represented by the boulder. Am I saying that my efforts for a fruitful career won’t be fulfilled? Not sure. As I dive more and more into philosophy and live my life with an open mind, my questions will be answered.

An interesting project I thought of was to capture different architectural designs that are scattered across Dallas. There are enough unique buildings that need to be captured, every week would be an opportunity for me to capture two to three different buildings. If that is a project I decide to take, I will definitely put them on display here. I thank you once again for reading my blog entry and this blog post’s song recommendation is “Intro” by kid Atari (Soundtrack from ‘Ghost in a Shell’)